Tuesday, May 30
One of the worst and the best dae of my lyfe...
29May06
2dae waz the most freaky dae of my lyfe...
well the nyte b4 i culdnt sleep bcoz todae iz my mother tongue O level pPr! god so scary, nervous yet excited... well my temperature got higher.. not if anybody cares.. woke up almost l8 in the mornin.. felt a jerk.. it woke mie up... 7pm.. god almost late.. got to the shower and called hazmi..(we planned to go skul 2gether-gether..)
we managed to mit up.. he waited for mie at prime mart.. i waz exhausted cause i culdnt slip.. at all.. but it changed after mie and hazmi chit chat.. Msg maya noii and wanie.. dey juz got out.. so excited.. i wanted to revise in the buz but my conversation with hazmi was so "into the zone" that i forgot about my examz.. it helped me to remain calm tough.. noii, fika, wanie boarded the same buz as us 198.. That waz so kewl.. the moment i said gudbye to hazmi, my exam rush came.. GOD this is so scary! well went along and saw Nasri.. Lamer sae tk jumper( so long nvr see).. We salaamed and proceeded on to our examination room.. the invigilator waz the dumbet invigilators i'f ever known.. She's slow and DUMB!(doesnt it make u wonder how she became a teacher in the first place?)..
The O level ppr waz sumwat manageable.. waz so hapi.. Got gud lux msgs from syahid, yalee, da jie{eva}, khairi, noii, yuni, fiqah.. and many more i culd'nt remz.. thanks any wae... AND THX YAR HAZMI... (he wished for mie to lyke get C5)!.. arse him! sochiaL.. wawawa.. he's still my bro lar.. wun get angry over a joke.. hmmz then after the ppr.. went hum.. koled store.. syahid ans.. HE'S SICK! haha.. finally.. jokin bro.. tok to boss.. well he waz in a gud mood.. l8r mie werk 6-10.. and wats realli unexpected? i did PArti! god that's so tedious.. with mie being sick and all.. after the parti mie spend sum tyme wit hin, mie mumma, hazmi, eve and mak ana.. so fun.. hmm i tried hazmi's shoes, hatz.. durgh dumb himbos...
well e.V wanted to attach me to WCP(west coast park) but Charmed's on.. i cant sacrifice the one thing that i lurve bcoz of werk.. in fact i seldom goes down to store on tuesdaes..
plus tomoro i got phy and chem practikal mock xam... god!
then chit chat wit them mi and eve.. then she lyke totalli lyke force mie hum.. BIG SISTERZ! god i realli miz Jumie's screams and shoutingz...
haix..
2 be honest, i alwaes feel alone, sad, and left out.. im lyke evryone's laz choice to be wif.. Im a freaking doormat.. 90% of my tyme is spent thinking of my frenz, my peepz and my brudderz..
i fear to lose them.. they are my evrything.. sumtyme i feel ppl lyke totally saes "God, that finally got rid of him!!"..
not once.always.. No doubt frens cum and goes but i can't live w/out ppl that i feel connected to.. i feel so distant! Is this karma for my wrongdoingz? the more i think about it the more i feel alone.. feels lyke ive been stabbed one tyme too many.. it hurtz wen u noe u r there for others and they are not there for you.. trust mie evry single 'good gestures' of my frens touches mie.. deeply.. but sum tingz are juz not meant to be so.. im here again signing off broken harted..
Take care!
_whitesnake_
Pyrorion Blair on Tuesday, May 30, 2006
